This is very, VERY awkward to write about, but it's been on my mind a lot lately.

I'm an 18 year old male, I've never dated anyone. I've had crushes on girls, and I don't think I've ever really had a crush on a guy.

Anyway, I've been wondering for the past few years if I might be gay. I get much more turned on by naked men than women.

I'm not really as afraid of being gay as I was before, but I'm confused. I mean, I know my parents and friends would still love and accept me, but I'm not sure if I'm gay or not...

Because when I think about being in a relationship with someone, living with someone, marrying someone, and spending the rest of my life with someone...I always imagine me with a girl. I WANT to be with a girl. I like being around girls, and the thought of marrying one and growing old together really makes me happy.

I've tried thinking about what it would be like with a guy, and while I don't HATE it...it just doesn't appeal to me as much. I just really feel comfortable around girls and I want that kind of companionship. It's sort of hard to explain, but that's really what I want.

What do you think? Please be serious...thank you.